Bee Yummy Skinfood and others

I ordered Samples of the Bee Yummy skin food that Fran has been using.

Here is the review:

ttp://www.highonhealth.org/the-best-moisturizer-for-acne-prone-skin-bee-yummy-skinfood%E2%84%A2/

This Monday, I received the sample and I’ve been putting some on my skin day and night after using my cleanser (Cetaphil). My skin is getting a bit better but I think I am in the purging period… Some of my old acnes have gone down in size, some whiteheads pop out then heals (Yes, it’s gross!) and some new ones pop up. My skin is getting a bit wacky at the moment but it is expected from the cream! I expect the purging period to last up to 2 weeks (Finger crossed)… My sample can last about two weeks (I think) so if there is result, I’m ordering the 2 oz version.

I stopped using Clinique 3 steps system because it wasn’t doing my skin any good. I stopped proactive last week because it dries my skin too much and I’m returning today them. I just ordered :

http://www.highonhealth.org/product-review-hemp-hemp-hooray-lush-lime-cleansing-cream/

and I just ordered two natural clay mask (Yellow and green ones):

http://www.highonhealth.org/hot-tip-clay-mud-mask-and-cucumber-for-treating-acne/

All the things I bought online will be paid from my proactive money. Technically, I am not spending any extra $$ for new skin stuff. I know I should see the dermatologist but the appointment is on January 21st 2010!! I’m sticking to eating healthy and using natural products on my skin for now. Hopefully, it is working. The acnes on my foreheads have cool down and it is a lot lighter than last week. My chin developed two nasty zits. And… Yeah I’ve been snacking on healthy food too!

What I’ve been snacking lately?

Goji berries… I bought the organic ones from Tau and they are super good! Rich in antitoxin and 100% vitamin A too!!

Raw cacao beans… The most antitoxins food there is out there! The taste is bitter but I got used to that.

I’ve been using olive oil in my cooking and I’ve been drinking a lot of water… The most important thing is… SLEEP! God, I’ve been not sleeping well lately because of stress! Speaking of stress, I’ve been exercising lately to reduce my level of stress. So far so good!

As I grow…

You tell me to change… You get mad if I don’t change… You get angry… You end up being depressed… You accuse me that I am the root of your unhappiness… You hate me… You tell other people how bad I am… You get even more depressed… In the end, you just end up hurting yourself.

All the negative thoughts you put in my head over the years lead me to become just like you; pessimiste about the world. You want people to feel miserable just so you wouldn’t be alone… Well, you are not going to drag me with you anymore. I will pave my own path and be happy in life. My first step is to brush the negative thoughts away…

Lesson learned

The constant sun exposure last summer without sunscreen is one of the main cause of my sudden breakouts. How stupid of me? No wonder my skin is having so much problems lately… I am slowly recovering. Hopefully, I will be back with lots of things to talk about!

One of the lesson I learned throughout my breakout is… The world is a really mean place. I did learn who are my true friends now. So to those who were mean to me… All I gotta say is FUCK YOU!

Yes I am cursing but these two little words resume all the angers that I feel throughout my breakouts. Maybe I should make a t-shirt out of the FU slogan and wear it throughout the school to get my message across. Then again, it’s only a random want and it wouldn’t be classy to wear it yeah? LOL!! It just feels good, you know? xD

The world will see…

First day this week going to school bare face after a week of fondation, I get negative reactions from people. Yes, I know fully well I have a lot scars and acnes… Scars look like pimples in a way. So what? I am trying to get treatment with all sort of medical thing I can but you know hormones raging and all my good habits don’t work as well as it used to.

A friend got pissed off two weeks ago and tell me to do something about my chin, excuse me? 1. That is rude. 2. Who the hell you telling me to do something about it without first asking me how I got that face in the first place? Yes, I am DOING SOMETHING about my acnes. You see, I just recently suffered through post-period symptome which involved hormones problem! And yes, I am buying creams to take care of it since for awhile. You don’t need to tell me to drink a lot of water or all that health related things. I am taking care of my skin. 3. I want to concentrate in school instead of my stupid pimples. Why don’t you do the same instead of concentrating on people skin condition and accuse me of not doing anything to help my skin condition.

I understand that we live in a superficiel world but even my so called friends are acting distant lately. You know what? Having these things actually helps me figure out who my real friends are. I don’t wear makeup usually and trying to use them as a cover up makes me even more unconcious, I am more than happy bareface. Yes, I can’t wait to get those pills and recover from them; it’s not pretty, I know but I am going to remain makeupless in order to speed up the healing process.

The clinique thing is still not clearing up my pimple… The tone of my skin color has gotten better but the acne is still there. None of my acnes disappear and some new ones are forming… I heard that before it heals, the skin gets worst for the first 2 weeks. Okay, I don’t stress about it… Everything is going to be okay.

Adding to the expense

I never thought I need birth pill… No, I am not sexually active… It’s to control my period. All these break outs come from the hormones. Damn you! As I grow up, things start adding up and I need to buy more things;beauty and health related.

I just bought the Clinique 3 steps system today and I just applied some not long ago… It makes my skin less reddish and some of my blemishes are reduced a bit. Will tell you more about it later.

I’m crossing my fingers hoping it will work! I don’t want to buy proactiv or go see the dermatologist anymore… Please let it work! The bottles are humongous and it will probably last me for a year if it works. Imagine the savings I will make each year… Proactive is every two months for $70 and that makes $420 per year. Dermatologist… $40 every two months and $50 for another cream and that makes $290 per year. Clinique is… $79 per year. Yes, I am that cheap. I also have to pay the pills monthly… Can’t afford to spend more than $500 on skin care, I’m just a student working part-time.

Delaying delaying…

Yes.. I am suppose to put up the personal style part 3 but you see… I didn’t think about style anymore these days. I am too busy thinking about the nasty scars left on my chin and forehead. I should’ve done something before but I guess it is a bit too late. Well, I am treating them with whatever home remedy I have or can buy cheaply. The scars are fading so far… It is a lot less worst than say a few days ago but I have high hope it will disappear soon. Meanwhile, I resort to fondation… and yes… I wear makeup for the first time in school.

How do I look? For the time being, I can live with having powders on my face. I should learn to experience with makeup soon… I am a hopeless 20 years old who don’t know a thing about beauty but I am not really into looking gorgeous… Pretty is fine with me. Hihi…

Another thing I want to add… I’ve been gaining weight on my tummy. Blame my late night snacking and the constant eating to calm my stress. 

I will get back to you on the style part… I’ve been wearing the same darn combos for days and I don’t care as much now. Too busy saving for my trip but so many things to pay and it’s frustrating!!

Taking control of my life

I haven’t been blogging much because I’ve been a bit lost lately. In order to gain control of my life again, I have to take a small break from the internet.

Here a lyric from one of Whitney Houston recent song that I find inspiring… If she ever comes to Montreal, I am so going to see her. She may not sound the same as she used to but she is still so damn talented!

Million Dollar Bill

Oh, yeah, yeah…
Oh…

Came in the door, checked in my coat, and who I’m lookin’ for is starin’ in my face, oh;
They played our song, we hit the floor, he helped me through, and we danced the night away, oh…

I can see the way that he’s makin’ me feel this way about his love;
I’ve been lookin’ for somethin’ like this – I’m singin’..
(Oh, oh, oh, oh…)

If he make you feel like a million dollar bill,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it… (oh, oh-oh)
Makes you go left, right, up, down, got you spinning round and round,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it!
Ah, baby…

It’s been a long, long time since I felt that love has found my way, oh;
I’ve been lookin’ (lookin’), I been searchin’ (searchin’) for the man to touch this place…
Oh, yeah…

Can’t deny the way that he’s makin’ me feel this way about his love;
I’ve been searchin’ for somethin’ like this – I’m singin’..
(Oh, oh, oh, oh…)

If he make you feel like a million dollar bill,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it… (oh, oh-oh)
Makes you go left, right, up, down, got you spinning round and round,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it!
[ Whitney Houston Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]
If he make you feel like a million dollar bill,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it… (oh, oh-oh)
Makes you go left, right, up, down, got you spinning round and round,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it!
Ah, baby…

If you feel good, if you feelin’ good, put one hand in the air – say “Yeah!”
If you feel good, if you feelin’ good, it’s cause love is in the air – oh, yeah…

If he make you feel like a million dollar bill,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it… (oh, oh-oh)
Makes you go left, right, up, down, got you spinning round and round,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it!
If he make you feel like a million dollar bill,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it… (oh, oh-oh)
Makes you go left, right, up, down, got you spinning round and round,
Say it (oh, oh-oh), say it!
Ah, baby…

Oh, oh, yeah, yeah…
(Oh, if he makes you feel, oh, if he makes you feel…
Go on and say it, go on and say it…)
Oh, oh…
(Oh, if he makes you feel, oh, if he makes you feel…
Go on and say it…
Ah, baby.)

Written by Alicia Keys

I’m more of a happy song kind of girl! xD

Just go… GO!

Recently, I went to see a concelor to talks about my future plan and my life situation.. After the second meeting, I still feel lost. I just want to get away from here… I feel like just taking my savings and just go work anywhere next summer. I just want to run away from here. I shouldn’t be distracted anymore and start saving now!

Lack of variety

My wardrobe is boring… Yes, I get moments like this when I’m bored of my wardrobe because there’s not as much variety as I like. Before I post finding my personal style part 3: My inspiration, I’m going to refered to some points from my previous one I post last August.

Artsy accessories: I love details on my accessories such as earrings, bracelets, necklaces, belts and bags. However, I want them to fit perfectly to my outfit and not overwelm it with my accessories.

Casual: I want to dress effortless and not try too hard. Not much heels for everyday wear… Mostly flats shoesI’ll be wearing to school.

Conservative: I don’t want to go all out and show people everything. I want to have a classier approach of showing my skin. What I mean is I’ll show my legs and hide the upper part kind of thing.

Tomboy: This faze of mine ain’t over yet. I love to have this sporty/tomboy feeling in me. I won’t wear heels that much…

Cute/Appealing look: I like to wear cute stuff. I’m opting for more skirts of all kind and to have cute t-shirts combo. Also some nice flats. http://theclothes.blogspot.com/ is my idol in this.

Edgy: A bit of an edge to my outfit and my accessories will do the trick here. The shoes are also important… However, I’m looking to add my own personal touch in my outfits… I need to learn how to sew. These days, I’m really into studs of all kind. Will shop around to find them!

My next post will concentrate on the part 3 of finding my personal style.

Oyster season

Two days ago, Eric showed me how to eat oysters… The uncook version. It’s my first time eating them and I love it!

I wish I could eat that much but I only ate 12!! I’m thinking of buying some for my godbrother to tried it… He might like it.

Another clue on what I’m taking as mini-course and it will start next Monday: